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New goals at work

Let me just start out by saying I’m so grateful to be at work again. However, things are much different for me now, and I haven’t really accepted/understood that.

At my current job, memory is a giant struggle. The other day, one of our bloggers’ photos were too dark, so I thought I was helping the company by lightening the photos and then re-uploading them. However, there were captions along with the photos, and I totally forgot to include them after my change. One of my coworkers (and my former boss) told me the blogger emailed her and asked where they were. She’s asked me not to edit a while ago, but I did it anyway. Also, my memory didn’t remind me that there were captions with those photos, so I didn’t attach them.

 

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What’s a bigger problem than memory, though, is my unwillingness to respect the requests I was given. I don’t know why I’ve gone above and beyond what they’ve asked of me, but I have. My goal is to understand their orders and not usurp them. I haven’t been happy at work, and this is the reason why. My goal is to listen and respond to requests when I’m asked.

What’s a bigger problem than memory, though, is my unwillingness to respect the requests I was given. I don’t know why I’ve gone above and beyond what they’ve asked of me, but I have. My goal is to understand their orders and not usurp them. I haven’t been happy at work, and this is the reason why. My goal is to listen and respond to requests when I’m asked.

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2 thoughts on “New goals at work

  1. I just stumbled across your blog tonight and wanted to say that you are inspiring. You’ve come so far and I know you will continue to have success in life! Your attitude to getting your life back is wonderful.

  2. Hi Sally:
    It took me a while to respond to your well-written and honest message. Right away I visualized a organization plan in mind and wish I could sit with you for 2 hours and talk with you, both as a TBI survivor woman and professional Speech Language Pathologist.

    Your message brought a few tears to my eyes because I understand the current frustration and feelings you’re dealing with. It is very difficult to adjust the change from what you were able to do at a much higher, faster paced level to realizing and accepting how you are working now. Very difficult. One way to look at is: you were in a severe accident and it’s been quite a while since you were working at the level you used to. Even without the accident things change rapidly over time and it takes so much energy to keep up with it and adapt. Did you ever miss work for a couple of weeks before and notice changes that occurred when you were gone?

    Another reality is the amount of energy, time and focus that is required to multi-task and complete projects (even keeping up with bills, schedules, responses, etc). But mostly, one part that only others who have been in such difficult, severe accidents would understand, is how much energy and time it takes, on a daily basis, to keep belief and faith in ourselves moving way past the “surviving” mode to living the way we want to be. Yes, we may look just fine, beat all odds to recover at the high levels we have, but really, recovery doesn’t end there. Accepting that ourselves is so tough because we ask -“is this why I worked so hard to recover?”.

    That kind of recovery takes time and never giving up. Yes, we can get upset, angry, frustrated and worried, but when that happens breathe, look around you, embrace what has come your way, believe and step forward. There will be days your steps are very short but other days will result in numerous steps, jogging or running. The days will not happen in a linear fashion, and that’s totally OK. Believe me, I do this and see how it occurs every day.

    What are 2-3 top work goals for you right now? How can you progress on those goals? Write the long list of what’s already there, and then the shorter list of what needs to happen/change/add/combine. This is the part I’d love to sit with you & review. It’s doable, achievable and possible. Don’t give up or spend too much time in one place; you are on the way!

    Call me if you’d like to meet – I now live in Arvada. 505-352-4158

    Judy

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